Over the 5-month course of Levi’s 12 rounds of chemotherapy, he was hospitalized 5 or 6 different times for severe nausea. He was completely unable to eat or drink (or keep meds down) and needed to be on an IV so he wouldn’t dehydrate. He would have one week on, and one week off of chemo. Each time, taking him 3-4 days to recover. Every cycle was so difficult for him and unbearable for me to watch.
Just as the year was coming to a close and we thought we were in the clear, Levi felt some discomfort in his groin area. We took him for a scan and then came home to wait for the results. I was so distraught I had to leave the house. All I could think about was the oncologist telling us about follow-up treatment if the cancer had returned. He said the drugs were very strong and used the word “horrific.” I couldn’t even wrap my brain around that. What he had been through was horrific enough. I didn’t think he could survive round 2. I was literally on my knees sobbing. The scan indeed revealed 2 more small tumors, which were immediately removed. The subsequent pathology confirmed that there was no evidence of cancerous cells and the oncologist determined that no follow-up chemo would be necessary. I swear Levi and I held our breath for 2 days waiting for that call. I was cooking dinner when the doctor called me to give us the news. I closed my eyes and held the phone to my ear. I started crying when he said the words. Levi was sitting at the island in the kitchen and I turned to tell him. He closed his eyes, put his head in his hands and took the biggest, deepest, cleansing breath and said, “Ah! Thank God I don’t have to do chemo again!”
I am happy to report that Levi is graduating with his class in May 2017. Despite his illness, he never missed a beat. He kept studying, writing papers, and taking tests, all through his many surgeries, numerous hospitalizations, and chemotherapy. I distinctly remember him taking his books to chemo, puking his guts out and picking them right back up again. Who does that? What he endured and overcame was enormous. At 19 years of age, he looked death in the face. But he never quit, and pushed through with a determination and grace I’ve never before witnessed. Throughout, his quiet display of confidence in his ultimate healing was truly inspiring. Daily, we pray for his continued healing. This August, he will be 3 years out from his last day of chemo.
When Levi was very young, I placed this framed quote on the wall above his bed-